battles and birthdays.

so. i'm now entering my third month of college. it's been quite a ride. after many cycles of struggle and peace, i finally feel like i'm fitting in here. but i know that there are struggles that lie ahead of me.

i've had a lot running through my mind the past few weeks. i'm kind of tired so i'll give you all the reader's digest version...

basically, i'm tired of living like i'm trying to impress people. it gets so exhausting. and no matter what, no one is ever happy. basically, i can't do anything right. so. i'm trying this new thing where i actually do what i want to do and try not to care what other people think. it's kind of lonely, but i'll be fine. the way i see it, when you're faced with the truth and it's not where you need to be, you have two options: you can embrace the truth as truth and do something about it or you can ignore the truth and just play games. i've tried the second option. it's not worth it.

so...here's what's been going on:

1) school: i survived midterm week. i got a 91 on my western civ midterm (i'm not sure if i mentioned that already) and a 94 on my HOI (history of ideas) midterm. we don't have midterms in natural science or english (which is a relief) and my old testament midterm will be two weeks after fall break (which started, for me, at 6:20 pm). natural science is a struggle, as usual...but i'm hoping to play catch up over break. my friend josh helps to get me through class every week. we're actually planning a huge joint birthday party on december 4th (his 19th birthday is on the 3rd and mine's on the 5th)! that'll be pretty awesome!

2) church: dave's had me working on a lot of stuff pertaining to student ministry growth and assimilation. basically, i'm in charge of keeping tabs on every student that comes to richland creek and making sure that they get plugged in. i'm also checking up on all the parents to make sure they're attending sunday school. it's quite a task...i'm using two computers at the same time to work on it all! it's awesome, though; i love it! this week, dave and i were organizing some stuff for D NOW (disciple now) this weekend. it's a mini retreat for the students at home. we spent hours talking about music and college and even boys (hahaha). i'm so thankful that God led him to the creek!

3) boys: (speaking of which) i'm so sick of most of them. being a girl at a southern baptist college/seminary, i'm trying to adjust to being the minority. it's just so hard being surrounded by so much testosterone all the time! honestly...i'm done with it. for now.

4) friends: my favorite twins' birthday was this past tuesday! sam and savannah turned 19 and we had a surprise party for them! i love those girls so much; they're so sweet! umm...let's see...my friend dylan pulled an all nighter two nights ago! i admire his bravery haha. he's pretty cool. amie (my roomie) is working a lot...so i don't really see her too much. i haven't really had much of a social life this week...lots of stuff going on.

tomorrow is the start of a busy weekend. i'm substitute teaching for the preschool at richland creek from 8:30 to 12:30 in the morning. then i'm meeting with elizabeth (who's home from liberty!) at 1 to go over some stuff for d now, and then i'm hanging out with vicky at 3 (she's going to india in october!) and d now starts around 5:30 and lasts until sunday...

i'm loving my biblical counseling class. honestly...i think i feel more called to that than to missions in some ways. i don't know though. dr. catanzaro is awesome. i'm learning a lot.

i really want to fly out to california to see jordan and dee soon! like, i would leave tonight if i had the chance! (hint, hint mom and dad...haha)

well, i guess that's it for now.
later days.